I have been on a quest for the last four months to get my mind and body together. It may be symptom of all the perfection I see on social media or that my 40th birthday is breathing down my neck, but whatever it is I am embracing it. I think.
A few months ago I told you my phrase for this year is "Embrace the Journey". I know. I know. There is nothing provocative about that phrase, except it's mine. However, this simple statement is something I needed to ground me. Let me explain.
"Embrace the Journey" means so much, so it may take me a bit to unpack it. I feel like I will unpack it over time, but for now it means waking up and accepting whatever God has for me. What I mean by that is, as much as I want to control everything and know where I am going, I can't. This stresses me out to the nth degree. I really hate surprises, so sometimes I want to duck under a pillow fort and wait out the storm, so I can see more clearly, then react. I can't. And, THAT AIN'T LIFE.
So instead of letting my anxiety steal my joy and peace, this year I am relinquishing all control I have to God and riding in HIS passenger seat because he doesn't need a co-pilot. Seriously.
Therefore, for the the past month or so, I have been holding on to my faith to get past my anxiety. Faith is actually my word of the year.
When people talk about their faith, it tends to put a HUGE spotlight on my own. I like to believe I have unwavering faith, but I do not. You see, I have the type of faith that wavers a lot more than it should, but thankfully God has ALWAYS shown up and out for me. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. Yet, my faith wavers- almost like those buoys in the ocean they put out to keep people from going too far. I see those buoys as God's mercy, ushering me to the safest part of the water, yet I try to go around and find my own way. And sometimes, I manage not to drown and make it back to shore, BUT that is only because of HIS grace.
Thank God for grace and mercy. I wouldn't be here without it.
So, as I continue to embark on trying to unpack what it really means for me to embrace this journey, I want to you to remember a few things:
We are never in control of anything. Accept that and move on.
For best results, follow "the maker's" instructions.
Learn to rely JUST on God. He will ALWAYS get you through the tough spots.
Pray without ceasing.
(You know I am really talking to myself, right?)